gumdoll

I'M BACK!!!

2007-02-04T22:17:17Z

well it's been a little too long again, and I'm really going to try and keep up with the updating this time.

News
Got a place at Oxford university, so will be moving into St John's college, St. Giles st. in Oxford this October, anyone who lives close please let me know.

Moving out of the (BIG) house we've been living in since I was 9. Having do downsize due to Mum and Mike's divorce, meaning Adam and Sam won't be living with us (every cloud!)

Petra, the new Czech student living with us is crazy and wonderful and I love her to pieces

Just finished January Modules of my A levels...results in january

New dreads:

Up in a tree

Not in a tree

In other news, Sam is still wonderful, I am still skint, still battling with the smoking thing.
My 18th is on the 5th of May, plans to follow, everyone has to come.

Would be lovely to hear from you all
Much Love
Baby B

neglected journal

2006-10-06T12:20:20Z

my journal has been negelected of late, and so I'm going to do a proper update now. Not a long rambly one...but a full one.

My life has mostly consisted of

-Completion of university application - I have now applied to Oxford, Kings College London, UCL, LSE, Cardiff and Kent. If I ever have to read my university application form again I will kill myself. I got a good reference though so hopefully that will be ok. I also have to sit a test, the LNAT, in a coupla weeks. A lil nervous about that but because it's apptitude not legal knowledge I should be ok

-Paula's friend had me take an IQ test on the internet. Not completely accurate I have to say, but he was still really embarrasing about it.

-Spending a lot of time with the lovelly Sammy

-Quit smoking (day 5 now and it's going great)

-Spending time with my mum...she's going away with Gordon on Sunday and Mike and Jan are comming here to look after us...can you imagine?! Needless to say I will not be at home much.

-Getting really excited about the fact that I am seeing AFI on Monday!

-Made my frist set of roving dreads this week for Sam, will be putting them in 2moro for him. If anyone wants roving dreads made from scratch I can make the dreads and install them for a relatively small price. Have to take mine out in a few days to get ready for hair modelling a week Monday, but watch this space for cool new hair in the near future.

I think thats everything of any importance whatsoever.

However, before I go, a small request. Next weekend (13th-15th) is anyone free? well not necessarily even free...just having plans that I could join in with? Sammy's away but I don't want to be at home if I can help it because of the Mike situation. I might be able to go to my dads but if anyone is out clubbing or partying and they wouldn't mind me tagging along I'd much prefer that.

over and out kiddies

long time...

2006-09-11T18:35:55Z

It's been a long time since i posted. I'm back at college...at home...on my own. poo. Miss my sammy...too much. Applying for uni this week...shitting myself. feel a bit crap...probably drank too much over the last 5 or 6 days. maybe have a cold.

Stay (By Alison Krauss)

Where have you been, my long lost friend?
It's good to see you again
Come and sit for a while, I've missed your smile
Today the past is goodbye

Time can't erase a lovers embrace
But you heard it calling, a new day dawning, you were longing to find....

...Love had taken you far, away from my heart
And I've been here all along
Have your eyes failed to find what took you away from mine
A vision that's faded through time

There is a way
To make you stay
Darling don't turn away
Don't doubt your heart
And keep us apart
I'm right where you are...
...Stay

That is all

B

just for fun...

2006-08-27T13:49:51Z

I want to know 20 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. You are obviously on my list, so let me know who I'm friends with!

1.Your Full Name:

2. Ethnicity:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song:

6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of lj?

2. Whats your philosophy on life?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Would you give me a kidney?

7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

9. Can we get together and make a cake?

10. have you heard any rumors of me lately?

11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

12. Do you think I'm a good person?

13. Would you drive across country with me?

14. Do you think I'm attractive?

15. If you could change anything about me, would you?

16. What do you wear to sleep?

17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you ?

meme aside...not much going on...still in redhill with sam, having friends over tonight to get bladdered, no money, some certain situations are on the up though, which is all good.

Love you
B

results

2006-08-17T17:40:55Z

4 A's
Couldn't have done it without you (you know who you are)
Thanks also to everyone who has helped me to get through what has been a difficult half a year...you are all brilliant.

Thanks for those of you who came to sams b-day...it made me very happy...I am still ill and should probably let people know that I won't be touching anything intoxicating (bar the obvious alcohol...in moderation mind...) for a while, legal or otherwise I need to detox...I don't intend to be any less colourful or loud, and most of you probably won't notice a change aside from the fact that I won't necesarily come with a mandatory beer in hand and will refuse anything that is passed to me, it's not rudeness, not trusting you or going soft...there's nothing wrong and I haven't gone anti...I'm just taking a break.

A little confused by today in general...emails, STRANGE ASS PHONE CALLS...results...trying to eat and function like a human being...also trying really hard to get my head round things that are far to strange and mysterious for me to understand...

Going to bed soon

Loves to everyone
B

Quicky

2006-08-11T09:30:06Z

Last day of work

Money Disapearing

Sams party approaching

Off to Cardiff this afternoon

Dyed hair neon pink

Ordered dreads (neon pink, turquoise and blue)+ rexlace

Lonely
Bored
Still silence...this makes me very very VERY sad (so I guess you win)...also a little bit angry

Is anyone going to synthetic culture next week?? I want to go but sam might not and I don't want to be a larry loner :)

memememememememe from missyk8

2006-08-07T15:32:37Z

A is for age:
17

B is for beer of choice:
Fosters export

C is for career right now:
Personal Assistant to The Tribunal Service Programme and Project Manager (Me and k8 are obviously in competition over jobs with stupidly long titles), but after friday back to boring old student

D is for your dog's name:
I don't have a dog, although I live with sams dog at the moment, he is called Lucky

E is for essential item you use everyday:
Computer

F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
Blackadder, always was, always will be

G is for favorite game:
Crash Bandicoot (any one up untill twinsanity)

H is for Home town:
Southend on sea (pronounced saafend on sey)

I is for instruments you play
Guitar a very little

J is for favorite juice:
RUBICON

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
hmmm...

L is for last place you ate:
in the staff amienity at work...I had boots lunch deal! (out at a restaurant would be pizza hut with ty)

M is for marriage:
maybe someday

N is for your full name:
Rebecca Sarah Ann Handcock

O is for overnight hospital stays:
never (aside from birth)

P is for people you were with today:
Work people (not Lisa though, she's in Southampton=no one to assist!) Sammy this morning.

Q is for quote:
"If violence is religion, then everyone's a star. It doesn't matter what you've done, only who you are."

R is for Biggest Regret:
made a big opps on the weekend...

S is for status:
Happy in love, polygamous and co-habiting (for the next few weeks only though)

T is for time you woke up today:
7.00

V is for vegetable you love:
ALL VEGETABLES (especially corgettes and asparagus)

W is for worst habit:
um...I'm very open, very over emotional, far to overconfident, and i drink too much...i don't know which of those is worse...you'll have to choose yourself

X is for x-rays you've had:
I think just one or 2 on my teeth

Y is for yummy food you ate today:
Krispy Kreme doughnuts for breakfast, yummy chicken and pesto wrap for lunch. and I'm having yummy dinner today

Z is for zodiac sign:
Taurus...bull in a china shop baby...bull in a china shop

slams head against wall

2006-08-07T14:07:47Z

Take another shot of courage....wonder why the right words never come...you almost certainly wont read this so I guess I can vent, if you do read this, it's how i feel, nothing more, nothing less...

Last night, I said too much and drank too little.
Or maybe I said too little and drank too much.

Either way, I shouldn't have said what I said in quite the way I did. Thats as close to sorry as it's going to come because I'm not sorry, I'm just sorry you feel this way.

I want to understand but it just seems so ridiculous, how can you be so absorbed in whatever it is that you're feeling or thinking that you would just shut us out like this (shut me out like this). It's not like I'm asking for anything huge. Sometimes I think you just can't see the bigger picture. Sometimes I think you can and you just choose not to. Sometimes I just need you to BE HERE FOR ME.

So I swallow again, swallow my pride, swallow my tears, swallow the end of the bottle, and I wonder what it is that you are thinking...

DO YOU THINK OF ME?

Sometimes you claim you think only of yourself, and that life is easier that way. But I know you know that neither of those statements is the truth. Sometimes you can't look out for your best interests without taking some small risks. In the short term it always seems easier living life from shortcut to shortcut, but you can't just choose the immediatly easiest option forever, you'll end up far worse.

Either because you can't be bothered to have this conversation, or out of spite and malice, you've been silent for 20 hours 43 minutes (I care that much). And you know me, you know that our silence stings more than any words could.

So I'm sorry if I went too far, but sometimes knowing these things in your head is not enough...sometimes you have to hear them for them to be true, hear them from someone who cares about you, someone who loves you...someone you love

do you even love me?

20 hours and 50 minutes now, and I know how you feel, thats what makes this all so idiotic. i know how you feel about me, about the situation...about this whole damn fiasco

But you won't change anything.
Just...tell me that I'm wrong.

But most importantly, tell me that you love me

Always
Baby B
-x-

I want to marry him...

2006-08-02T10:32:31Z

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Beki for the win...

really...??

2006-08-01T11:51:04Z

Took the Machiavelli test...was SO suprised...

The Machiavelli personality test has a range of 0-100
Your Machiavelli score is: 89
You are a high Mach, you endorse Machiavelli's opinions.
Most people fall somewhere in the middle, but there's a significant minority at either extreme.

Tyler should take the test...he went home yesterday...this makes me very unhappy...nevermind...Sam's birthday party soon, so he'll be back.

I got paid yesterday, so if anyone fancies comming to see me I'm well up for proper evenings out now. Going out to Bodeans BBQ tonight with Sam (were meant to go yesterday but he felt ill and i felt lilke shopping on oxford street)

I BOUGHT THE SHOES!!!!!!!! Unfortunatly I can't update pictures from work so i can't show you them. They are the Red or Dead Bell in Royal blue and they make me very VERY VERY happy! I also bought some DVDs (Bill Bailey Live, the Libertine, Tetso: The Iron Man and Oldboy) Some Books (Haunted by Chuck Phalaniuk, Iron Council by China Mievielle and a book called Double Vision by someone I can't remember) and some stuffs from Lush. Today I'm buying dinner, hopefully some underwear to match my shoes (perhaps a bag as well) and also looking at the sale in schuh, as well as a trip to cyberdog for Sammy and hopefully being able to find somewhere that stocks 'so long scarecrow' by scarling. In my lunchbreak I'm looking for nail polish that matches my shoes and some new make-up.

Loves you all

B

colleagues

2006-07-31T14:20:10Z

damn you leena (or whoever it was who bit me on tuesday)

The bruise, origionally a raised area which caused me a huge amounts of pain, has not turned into a painless, but technicolour mark outlining both top and bottom row of teeth.

The office line today seems to be 'thats a nasty bruise...it looks just like a bite...how did you get that?'

*grumbles*

meme stoled from K8

2006-07-31T11:19:35Z

9 Lasts.
last cigarette: Just over an hour ago
last beverage: Banana and Caramel moccachino from starfucks :S it wasn't as good as it sounds
last kiss: This morning from Sam before I left...he was still in bed!
last movie seen: I saw some of the fifth element last night but last one all the way through was over the hedge
last phone call: a work one, I answered the phone for a guy called Neil who sits next to me but is out at a meeting
last cd played: CD was Zerospace by Kidney thieves (sam played it) but music in general was disturbed on my ipod on the way to work
last time you cried: Last Thursday
last party: Soho Pride yesterday (fanTASTIC)

8 have you evers.
have you ever been heart broken: not really, I've been very hurt
have you ever dated one of your best friends: I AM dating my best friend! Love you Sammy! (I've been on plenty of kind of 'dates' with tyler too, although we call them 'daddy/daughter days out)
have you ever skinny dipped: yuppers, I didn't intend to but i was wearing white underwear and it was so see through I ended up wearing none (I was bladdered)
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: Yes
have you ever been depressed: Yeah occasionally
have you ever lost someone you love: To death? no. To life? yesh
have you ever been drunk and threw up: oh God is that ever a silly question

7 States You've Been to.
None

6 Things You've Done Today.
Got the underground
Been paid (SQUEEE)
Found a restaurant to eat at tonight
texted Tyler (no reply though)
Been to the post office for my boss
Sent some emails

5 Favourite Things (in No Particular Order).
Sammy
Tyler
My family
Gays (including all gay related stuffs such as pride and the colour pink)
Having a good time

4 People You can Tell [Almost] Anything to.
My Mum, My Dad, Sammy, Tyler

3 Wishes (in No Particular Order).
To get into Oxford
To own one of those beautiful flats on Battersea pier (the ones on the way into London Victoria with the purple and silver frontage - I want one of the two level open plan penthouses with semi circular floor to ceiling windows and huge balconies) I guess what I mean is I want about £2.5m
For Tyler to be back for good

2 Things You Want to Do Before You Die.
See the world (particuarly Japan)
be rich

1 Thing You Regret.
I can't really think of any. I'm not one of those people who is against regrets so I'm sure they're there...I just don't know what they are...

a short announcement

2006-07-27T11:08:15Z

Happy brithday to miss midnightradio_ Hope you have a great day gurl

Just about to run off to lunch with the boyfriends mum and my mum...they've never met before...scary :S

I'll let you know how it goes

B

meme stoled!!

2006-07-25T13:28:46Z

1. Elaborate on your default icon. Photographer: Sammy, Location: His bedroom.

2. What's your current relationship status? Committed, deeply in love but wonderfully open :D

3. Ever have a near-death experience? of course not...I'm a smoker...we don't get them...we get cancer

4. Name an obvious quality you have. I smile a lot...I think.

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now? "Cannon ball" by Damien Rice

6. Name a celebrity you would marry: Sammy...he is too a celebrity...all of the teeny goths in Camden want his sex from when he was a dancer

7. Who will cut and paste this first? No idea...i know squish is in need of entertainment

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity? When I was done up for my leavers ball someone said I was dressed like Marylin Munroe but that's the closest I've ever come...I'm not pretty enough to be a celebrity lookylikey

9. Do you wear a watch? What kind? No, I have two, a gold one and a plastic Hello Kitty one but they annoy my wrists

10. Do you have anything pierced? nothing at all

11. Do you have any tattoos? Not at the moment

12. Do you like pain? yessum

13. Do you like to shop? yessum

14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash? 20 Black Superkings yesterday morning

15. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card? (Debit card) 20 Black Superkings last thursday :S

16. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My boss about 10 minutes ago

17. What is on your desktop background? The Tribunal Service Logo. At home it's a tiled image of some shoes I'm going to buy next week (I'm not a sad act!)

18. What is the background on your cell phone? A picture of my 4 year old sister Charlotte

19. Do you like redheads? yesh

20. Do you know any twins? yesh, I know a few sets actually

21. Do you have any weird relatives? not really...

22. What was the last movie you watched? Over the Hedge with Tyler

23. What was the last book you read? As in, finished? Imajica by Clive Barker in my Lunch break. Finished it almost half an hour ago now...

Just a quick one

2006-07-25T10:26:25Z

Sooooo unbelieveably BORED

so: I will give a prize to the person who keeps me most entertained today. Tell me a joke or a story, send me a meme, ANYTHING

Also, please everone come to the eagle tonight...you know you want to!

B

Time for a proper update

2006-07-24T14:27:54Z

ho hum, feeling a bit better now, still relatively bored.

Thankies to everyone who came to the picnic on Thursday, it was excellent if a little hurredly planned. Imprompeau Zoey kidnap and poi is always good for an evening of entertainment...also rock on muntafara for having the forsight to bring RED STRIPE!!! We salute you.

Friday was pretty cool, went to Paulas for a while, chilled out a bit, Naz popped over then we all traipsed off, Paula to Emma's, Naz home and me and daddy to my house.

Friday night was spent mainly watching crap tv, then early Saturday morning...THUNDERSTORM!!! I think it must have been fairly localised, because Sammy didn't get one in London but it was terrific! The lightning lit up the whole street like a huge strobe, and you could see forks! I love Lightning storms, as does Tyler, so we watched from my bay window and went like this... :D

Saturday was spent having a lie in and then going to see 'over the hedge' in Crawley...highly reccommended film guys, it makes me laugh...I have also devised a new drinking game to play when it comes out on DVD...tehehehehehehe. Then Pizza Hut, then home with Beer, then my mother comming home pissed as a fart with *quiet voice* Bite marks and a hickie tehehehehehehehehhehe this made us giggle muchly. Then Sam (fat step-brother not love of my life) kicked off in some major way and Tyler almost knocked him out...which made me very happy. Oh yeah, Mike was home for the weekend too...and kept invading my privacy and turning up in my bedroom and phoning Jan while me and Ty were in the room and walking around the house in his pants like he still living there :S I was angry.

Sunday Naz came round.
Tehehehehehehehehe
() ()
*.*
Nuff Said.
Now Tyler is at his nans, I am back in London, and I wish it was still the weekend :'( Monday's make me very unhappy. It's good to be at home with Sammy, but it would be much much better if the three of us could have spent some proper time together...

IMPORTANT: YOU...YES YOU, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW NIGHT??

Answer: You're all comming to the Old Eagle in Canden Town (near Camden Road Station) to celebrate the fact that Tyler's in London and he doesn't have time to see everyone individually. No excuses (unless you don't know Tyler or live somewhere super far away or have a contagious disease or someone chews your legs off...so I guess SOME excuses...but not many, and only good ones)

Please let me know asap if you're thinking of comming and if so whether you will need an escort to find the pub and if so where can I send a minion to meet you? It would be quite useful to have a rough idea of numbers so that if there's too many I can think about relocation (the Eagle's not huge and I gather it gets quite busy with normal customers).

Loves you all...some meme's would be really good right now if you have any?

B

Monday Blues

2006-07-24T09:25:49Z

Monday

Overslept

No Cigarettes

Bad transport (nearly 2 hours to complete a 45 minute journey + train cancellations, then the next train only having FOUR carriages)

Late for work

No boss = no real work to do

I need to kill something.

Going to get coffee and cigarettes, then find some work to do, will update this afternoon when not so tense.

GRRRRRRR
B
-x-

STOLEN FROM TEH ALY

2006-07-21T11:57:59Z

My name:

Who am I in love with:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend?

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Have you ever kissed me:

Do you miss me:

Do you think i miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me?

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring:

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?:

Why this summer is so hot...

2006-07-20T16:01:10Z

Has anyone seen the film 'Soilent Green'? (goths and geeks: this has no connection to the Roman Dierge poem found in issue 2 of Lennore 'Soylent Green, the cannibal with no arms and legs).

It makes me want to reduce my carbon emmissions when the weather is like this...and also remember to never eat strange squares of coloured material given to me by the government.

Right, off to Regents Park, see y'all laters

B

FUMES

2006-07-19T15:02:58Z

I have 7...no less than 7, HUGE mosquito bites on my left shoulder...how they got there i do not know...they didn't itch this morning...but oh by god do they itch now...i think i'm going to go insane

Only Wednesday

2006-07-19T13:53:38Z

**foul mood today**

2 more days to kill before the weekend. Lisa's in a meeting untill about quater to 4 so I'm all bored again...no idea how I'm going to cope on Monday and Tuesday next week when most of the office are away on a course...no one would notice if i didn't even show up!!! (except my dad...who has promised me lunch on Tuesday)

It's stupidly hot, and the Team Charter meeting I spent all morning in was on the third floor, non air conditioned and hot from the city traffic below. I've only been out of the office once for a cigarette...trying to pluck up the courage to go down again...I don't like it out there. Going on the tube home is bound to be the worst experience of my life...but I wont forget my water like I did yesterday!

In other news, I think I've lost my passport.

Loves
B

BORED AT WORK

2006-07-18T15:22:33Z

Yush, here I am again, doing the work thing

Lisa's working from home today so I have very little to do. What use is a personal assistant with no person to assist? How ironic, in my working life I need someone bigger and more important than me to boss me around to keep me interested...obviously totally unlike other areas of my life...

ANYWAYS...yesterday was horrible, long, hot day at work, long, hotter walk to Covent Garden, then waited in the blistering heat for an hour for Belle who never showed up, went home to Sammy and was VERY odd all evening, the heat got to me, took me three beers to start functioning again! I did buy a new t-shirt on the way home though.
Tyler arrived on Saturday, despite all my fretting and worrying that there would be some kind of problem or delay or disaster. Spent a lovely Saturday night with beer and fish and chips + The last horror movie + gizmo + rabbits (much to the amusement of the assembled room - Sam, Ty, Paula and Emma). Sunday was much of the same, hours of tv with Ty and Sam and Paula, Emma was asleep but technically she was there too.

Spent the day organising Lisa's working life and trying to organise the rest of the week. So far I have thus plans:

Tonight: Nothing - Beer, hugs, Sam's mum's stir fry (it doesn't get much better than that on the food front...trust me!!! YUMMY!) and possibly watching Takashi Miike's 'Audition'

Tomorrow: Work then most probably more of the same but I'm open to suggestions if anyone has them, bearing in mind I am COMPLETELY skint until Thursday.

Thursday: Work then picnic in Regents park with Ty Sam and Paula, which I AM going to (I will I will I will) get organised tonight. I have made a shopping list but need to speak to Paula about times, what she's gunna bring etc.

Friday: Work then scoot down to Redhill to pick up Ty. Possibly going to a BBQ in Purley with Joshy and Louis but still waiting to hear if my invite is good for a +1. If so, much drunkenness and munterness will probably ensue, along with good music and a surplus of HOMS! If not spend evening at Paula's and see Naz, whom i luffs very very much :)

Saturday: Mooch about with Ty, then go to see 'Over the hedge' in Crawley, maybe get Pizza Hut too if my finds will stretch that far

that plan of action is mainly for Paula and Ty, as it saves me the hassle of having to explain a million and one things to them both. Ty, when you read this, please direct missy Paula's attention to the post and Paula, if you're reading this I will call you at some point this evening, probably as soon as it turns 6 or when I get im if my journey home takes forever...as it probably will.

Contemplating running away from work now to miss the really dangerous travel time between 5 and 7...Almost died yesterday...no joke.

Loves you all
Baby B

BORED

2006-07-11T14:35:53Z

Bored at work. Run out of proper work to do, literally people are making work up for me, which is all pretty tedious :(

Seeing Tyler in 4 days!!!

Found the best cocktail bar in the world last night, drank FAR too much, made some crazy South African friends who bought us champagne cocktails and shots of sambucha! The gave us platinum passes to the bar! w00t for cheap super strength coctails!

sooooo....does anyone fancy comming to see me at any point? I'm free for lunches anytime or after 5 pretty much anyday (except Fridays which I count as weekend and usually have booked up) pretty busy this week as well, lunch out on Thursday, Liz and Poppy's 2moro evening and drinks in the retox (my new favourite bar) with Stuart on Thursday evening. But next week is fairly free...aside from the obvious seeing as much of Tyler as I can afford to (getting him down from paulas to london = not cheap) also if anyone else wants to see Tyler it can be arranged...perhaps all go out for an evening...possibly to retox (do we think I love this bar?)...it would be really nice...I'm thinking mainly of people like poppet, liz, aly etc but you're all more than welcome, just let me know what days would be good for you.

ALSO...the 30th of July (Sunday) IS SOHO PRIDE...no one is escaping, you all have to come with me. It's going to be amazing because I think thats the day I get paid...although it might be the following day which would be a bit of a bummer. But either way were taking huge amounts of booze, a picnic and raving it up large in soho! EVEN IF IT RAINS!

There's also a gaydar day at thorpe park which looks quite fun, but obviously me and sam can't go on our own because it's quite obvious that we're not gay (hahahahahaha), so is anyone already going/interested in going? it's in August I think, tickets are about £30 or £80 for VIP which is probably what me and sam would get (free champagne and fast passes) I would link you to the site but my intranet wont let me access anything like that :S

Last question, TG this Saturday, who's going?

pfew, that was a long update...please, someone leave a comment, it's been a long day...

Baby B

Update from work

2006-07-10T15:19:34Z

Hey guys, sorry for the lack of update, is due to being computerless at Sam's for agggeeeeees

been working as a PA in blackfriars so if anyone happens to be around and about in london and fancies lunch/dinner/drinks please give me a bell and we will arrange something fun!

going out for dinner tonight with midnightradio_ and emmelii in covent garden which should be uber fun.

Missing everyone loads and really wish you would all come to London and see me!

Thank God that in just 5 days I'm seeing born_ruined...been missing him like mad recently :(. By the way mister daddy, if you're reading this, and Paula hasn't got in contact with you, she's been trying like mad and has really important information for you about getting you home. basically she'll explain it but all the cheap tickets were sold so the earliest she can afford to get you home on the 31st...hope thats ok...:S (also...Paula says sorry to Kurt...we didn't mean to steal him for so long) I will keep trying to phone you to make sure you get the message...see you saturday!!!

Righty...end of the day draws near...I must traipse off to Covent garden for my lovelly dinner

Will update more often now I know I can get to LJ from the office internet

Loves you all
Baby B

gumdoll @ 2006-06-06T00:12:00

2006-06-04T23:15:27Z

I should be getting some sleep
I am currently behind on my politics revision...I don't think i've ever worried about an exam like I'm worryng about this one...thats not to say I'm overly paniced...just...strange to say exams never stressed me before now...but tuesday is stressing me majorly...3 hours of Philosophy, followed by 2 hours of Politics. Here is a brief summary of the things I have to be an expert on:

Philosophy
Epistomology (Theory Of Knowledge) - rationalism, empiricism, the cogito, perception, truth and justification
Philosophy of religion - arguments for the existence of god (ontological, cosmological and teleological arguments), faith, belief, religious language
Sartre, Existentialism and Humanism - THE WHOLE LECTURE (seriously...read it...it's not complicated and in fact very interesting but it's content heavy to the extreme)

Politics
The constitution and constitutional reform
Electoral reform
Parliament
The executive
Devolution
The EU

not too much fun I have to own, dont get me wrong I really enjoy the subjects, I just hate revising for them. Well at least my philosophy revision is above standard, all thanks to Chris's help (not my favourite teacher in terms of style etc but certainly one of the most dedicated and supportive teachers around)

There is also a certain Hom with whom I will be having contact with later in the week...this makes me xcited...but right now my back hurts and I need to smoke and then sleep, a belated happy birthday to spiralweaver, sorry I missed it doll, will have to meet up soon and do something Londony.

In other news, I miss sammy, will be with him on tuesday evening but will probably just want to sleep...mmmmm cuddles

I think it's my sleeptime now actually
Love you all
Baby B